listening to the rhythmic drizzling forming outside, a calm night drifted slowly to a halt in blurry motion. what was expected would not remained expected. neither good nor bad, changes arose. voices echoing in the head, interrogating yet defending contradictorily. inconsistency drew doubts, mismatching words versus actions, reflected, patronizing in unwelcoming dreams. startled, waking up dreaded in sweat. saddened sweetness lingered to comfort.